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Tuesday, July 22, 2014

15-day offensive | They have killed more than 600 Palestinians

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The spokesman for the Ministry of Health in Gaza, Ashraf Al Qedra, updated the number of people who perished in the attacks by land, sea or air of the Israeli military, two thirds of them civilians. Among the 609 victims, said Al Qedra "154 children, 58 women and 38 elderly include".

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In the last hours, four women, one of them pregnant, and five others died in separate bombings on Gaza City and the north and south of the territory. "Two of the women were sisters, 50 and 70, who were killed in an Israeli raid on the Zeitun neighborhood south of Gaza, where five people were injured," the spokesman said.

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The pregnant woman died, as the baby waiting, along with two young men in an attack on a house in the southern town of Rafah. The Health Ministry also said in a statement that since the start of the offensive, Israel attacked 25 medical centers and hospitals.

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The latter was the Al Aqsa hospital in Deir Al Balah, in the central region, which was yesterday under fire from Israeli artillery fire that left four people dead and thirty wounded. The Palestinian Ministry of Religious Affairs also claimed in a statement that about fifty mosques have been completely or partially destroyed throughout Gaza.

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Today, the Israeli army bombed a school in the UN agency for Palestinian refugees (UNRWA) in downtown Gaza, where they had sought shelter near a thousand people. However, there were no victims since the director of this institution, which serves as a shelter, had ordered the eviction hours before due to the security situation in the field presence of Israeli troops. In the last two weeks have also killed two civilians and 27 Israeli soldiers and over a hundred injured, in a military operation to end the offensive capability of the Palestinian Islamist group Hamas.

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Shocking images of Israel Air attack on Gaza
















Israeli operation in Gaza leaves 80 dead in three days


Israel dramatically increased the intensity of its air strike in Gaza, reaching hundreds of Hamas targets while its air defense system was intercepting rockets. The latest reports say Palestinian militants have fired at least four rockets at Jerusalem, two of which were intercepted by the missile defense system "Iron Dome" and others fell in open fields, the army said. Palestinians reported 16 dead in one house and a cafe on the beach. Military spokesman Lieutenant Colonel Peter Lerner said Israel reached more than 320 white overnight, mainly networks of tunnels and rocket launchers deployed in various locations. This raised the number of targets reached 750 in a rule offensive that has killed 80 Palestinians. Lerner said Israel has mobilized some 20,000 reservists for a possible ground operation in Gaza, but for now is focused on getting the most out of their passing game. A ground invasion could cause large civilian casualties on the Palestinian side and the Israeli army. Neither side shows signs of yielding in its most intense fighting from an eight-day battle in late 2012. Israel says only think of a truce if Hamas stops firing rockets. Militants have launched hundreds of rockets into Israel all, which has disrupted the life of the country. There have been no serious injuries, and the defense system called "Iron Dome" has intercepted at least 70 projectiles directed to population centers. "The land option should be the last option and only if absolutely necessary.'s A carefully designed plan of action," Lerner said. The Israeli security cabinet will meet in the coming hours. The defense minister, Moshe Yaalon, said the operation was taking place as planned. "The armed forces have achieved significant successes," he said. "We will continue to understand that this escalation does not benefit them and not tolerate firing rockets at towns and our citizens." Palestinian medical officials said the attack early Thursday hit a house in the southern town of Khan Yunis, killing eight members of the Al Haj. The army said it had reached a car in Gaza on carrying three Islamic Jihad militants who had participated in rocket fire, raising the Palestinian death toll to at least 75 people.

Around 80 homes and buildings destroyed
The Interior Ministry in Gaza said in a statement to the media that about 80 homes and buildings have been destroyed in the last three days. Military experts quoted by the Israeli media have explained that that are occurring civilians among those killed in the bombing occurs because sometimes they ignore the warnings made earlier by the Army that will attack the house. 

Israel says 360 rockets have been fired from Palestinian Territory

In Israel's warnings usually give a margin of four minutes before the attack, which does not destroy another impact infrastructure and serves notice before the bombing itself adds revealed between. Since Tuesday, Israel estimates that about 750 goals have been targeted operations in Gaza. Meanwhile, the armed wing of Hamas, the "Brigades Azedin to Kasem" assumed the responsibility of launching more rockets at Tel Aviv and other cities in central and southern Israel. The sirens are activated again this morning in Tel Aviv, according to the Israeli army, a rocket was shot down in flight by the missile batteries deployed in the area. Also, Ben Gurion International Airport, near the Israeli city, has suffered delays again today due to activation of the sirens that warn of the impending impact of a projectile. Israeli military sources put at about 360 rockets fired from different reach the Palestinian territory, of which 255 landed in Israel and about 67 were intercepted by the missile batteries "Iron Dome" system. For now, the rocket attacks from Gaza have not caused fatalities, although dozens of cases Israelis have had to be treated for medical services for anxiety and panic attacks.

Monday, June 23, 2014

These are the spacesuits that will travel to Mars NASA

They are known as the costumes Z Series. The first two versions, the Z-1 and Z-2 , is a design of ILC Dover, the company that won the bidding. "We headed for Mars. That is the ultimate goal for costumes," said Phil Stampinato, company executive based in Delaware, accessed by specialized site Space.com.

Currently, astronauts performing tasks in space using the EMU, short for Extravehicular Mobility Unit (Extravehicular Mobility Unit) . While it is the clothes that have been using for decades, has many limitations.

One of its major flaws is to walk the discomfortTherefore, the Z Series are much more flexibleWith them will be walking in considerable comfort for Martian soil. "They are less likely to produce injury and offer better opportunities to leverage technology exploration, "said engineer NASA Amy Ross.

One of its peculiarities is that it is through the back, through a hatch . This allows a quick exit, which can help prevent the spread of pollutants inside the ship.
The Z-1 was submitted to NASA in 2011 and ended up being considered one of the best inventions of the year by the magazine Time . Its improved version, the Z-2, will be ready in November 2014.

The new model is more robust and durable than the last. Towards 2018 is expected to be ready the latest version, the Z-3 .
It is still unknown which model will be the ending using the first men to step on the red planet. But ILC Dover will continue to refine its Z Series to be ready when the time comes.

Monday, May 12, 2014

Nigeria | Boko Haram shows the kidnapped girls "converted to Islam"

Leader of Boko HaramAbubakar Shekau, speaking for 17 minutes in a video obtained by the agency AFP , which then displays some 130 teenagers wearing hijabs covering their entire body, reciting the first chapter of the Koran in a place surrounded trees. Off camera, the tape Abubakar warns that children, abducted from April 14 in Chibok, in the state of Borno (northeast), will only be released if the West, in turn, frees prisoners Islamic terrorists. At no point in the video, which lasts a total of 27 minutes appears Shekau accompanied by high school students, who seem sad and resigned , but not terrified. Two of the teens polled say they were Christian and converted to Islam, while the third states that she was already Muslim. Another says that young captives were abused. There is nothing to find out where this video was filmed, the quality is much better than the videos posted in the past by the Islamist group. At one point, a gunman on the place , carrying a video camera in hand. During his speech, Abubakar Shekau appears before a green background with military clothing and an automatic weapon. The head of Boko Haram, who speaks first in Arabic and then in Hausa, the most widely used in North Nigiera, language claims the mass kidnapping Chibok again, which had already made ​​in a previous video last Monday , and argues that he converted to Islam captive. Meanwhile, the Nigerian government announced it would not release Islamist prisoners, despite the claims of terrorists. Asked if the government rejected the proposal by Boko Haram in a video, Interior Minister Abba Moro responded to AFP: "Of course". Since April 14, when militants Boko Haram group went to a high school and captured 276 girls who performed an examination. Some escaped, but about 200 remain missing. 
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One of the children who managed to escape told the television station CNNHe counted seven trucks arrived to take them to school; Some saw them, escaped at that time alarmed. To her, a man forced her to board one of the vehicles. In a moment of distraction , I jumped and ran with all his might. "We prefer to run away to die, "he said. "We ran into the bushes. Ran and ran," he added. When the reporter asked further, trembling answered, "I feel afraid." The drama of the 276 Nigerian girls who have fallen into the hands of Islamic radical group seems endless. After being kidnapped while attending the local school district Chibok in Borno State, the testimony of another of them who escaped has realized the attacks suffered at the hands of members of the sect, which include suffer until 15 daily violations.


Israeli Help
Israel became the latter one country to offer to help Nigeria track down the kidnapped school. "Israel expresses deep shock at the crime against girls," said Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu to Nigerian President Goodluck Jonathan, as revealed by his office. "We are ready to help find girls and cruel combat terrorism have suffered," he added. The statement did not specify how Israel could join the search, which also involved British and American expertsA spokesman for the Foreign Ministry of Israel said he knew of cooperative efforts yet.

Eurovision 2014: Who's Conchita Wurst, the "bearded lady"?

Eurovision 2014: Who's Conchita Wurst, the "bearded lady"?

Conchita Wurst Total victory in the Eurovision Song Contest for Austria 48 years after his last victory. Forecasts and pointed to be the queen of the night with a flawless performance, the artist spread his wings as a phoenix of her song to win the 170 million viewers who watched the show. His name is Thomas Neuwirth , but since 2011 it goes up to the stage dressed as a woman and a bushy beard. Even before presented to the world last Saturday, he had become the media phenomenon of his country , Austria. Conchita Wurst (translated, Conchita sausage) was elected internally by the ORF public television in the country to represent Austria in the famous European musical contest. Wurst and got a dream wearing chasing a long time and at last has achieved success in full binge. And, at first, Conchita Wurst was actually Thomas Neuwirth atalented twentysomething who decided to participate in 2006 in the third edition of "Starmania 'musical program, where he finished second behind Nadine Beiler (Austria's representative in 2011 at Eurovision ).This is the video of their performance:

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Taking advantage of the pull of fame, founded a boy band, however, dissolved in the same year. After five years of absolute oblivion, Thomas Neuwirth, of escaparatista profession, he remained convinced that he could succeed in the world of music and gave it a 180-degree image. With red platform shoes with glitter, leather leggings and a dress all in black - in 2011 was presented to the quiz show "Die große Chance" (similar to "You really are worth" in Spain) and impressed everyone with his look and his performance of "My heart will go on" Celine Dion theme for the movie "Titanic." The jury gave the program at his feet and his name rang strongly in the Austrian media. Then tried his luck in the preselection for Eurovision 2012, but again finished second behind the duo Trackshittaz after a close vote. Austria, which until now had obtained poor results in his last three nominations at the festival (on the previous edition's representative did not reach the final) decided by the flamboyant artist to draw the attention of Europe. Something very simple since Conchita Wurst is well known in social networks where, besides an acid and sarcastic humor, boasts the struggle for the rights of sexual minorities, respect and tolerance. Now the success of last night reflected that undoubtedly bet your country has been more than successful.

Manchester City, Premier League champion

Manchester City, Premier League champion
The Manchester City today closed a existosa season to be crowned champions of the Premier League (the fourth in its history) in the last day, after beating West Ham United (2-0) , and thus win a historic double: Premier League and Carling Cup . curiosity is given also that Manuel Pellegrini, coach of the Citizens is the first non-European coach who wins the Premier. Quite a feat for the Chilean, former coach of Villarreal, Madrid and Malaga, among others. The City, which started with two points ahead of Liverpool itself depended on to clinch the league two seasons after their last title, and achieved his goal with a placid match at the French Samir Nasri ahead of the premises shortly before the break and sealed the Belgian Vincent Kompany. The Pellegrini closed the tournament with 86 points, whilethe "reds" were left with 84 after beating Newcastle (2-1) and Chelsea of Jose Mourinho, who won today at Cardiff (1-2) ended the tournament in third with 82 points. At the Etihad Stadium, Pellegrini fielded their best players available to compete in the match I had to assure them the league, including Sergio Aguero , who reappeared despite trailing muscle discomfort in recent days.Despite these physical problems, the Chilean did not want to give up their main reference in the attack, the player who secured the first title in 40 years City two seasons ago with a goal against QPR in the last minute of the match that closed the championship's 'Citizens' this afternoon only needed a point against West Ham , a team with all the work already done this season. Aware that the local be launched in a rush to attack as soon as the referee announced the match, the set of Sam Allardyce planted near your area a defensive wall from the start was the main obstacle for Pellegrini. The Most moves were initiated to the feet of David Silva or Spanish Ivorian Yaya Toure , who ruled the midfield "citizen" and trying to find space to connect with the "Kun" and Bosnian Edin Dzeko. Despite the tangle of West Ham defenses that hindered the progress of the premises, the City could overflow on the wing and tried your options with shots from distance. Dzeko forced the Spanish goalkeeper Adrian San Miguel save a good 17 minutes, while Touré launched a hit the right post moments after the ball. City's goal seemed to be a matter of time,with West Ham resisting continuous onslaught of Pellegrini , and fell under its own weight to five minutes before the break. As in so many other times this season, Toure drove the ball in the area of three quarters, looked up and saw his left to Nasri. Almost without transition, the French surprised the visitors' defense with a shot from outside the box that Adrian could only brush in one hand and the ball rebounded off the post before entering the goal.With the game on track, the "citizens" celebrated both in the corner with his fans as if they had already won the championship. The second half began as a mere formality to make way for the party at the Etihad. The City took no more than four minutes after the break to score the second, through the Belgian Vincent Kompany , who seized a loose ball in the box to finish a pleasure to just one meter from the goal line. The "Citizens' manufactured various options that could have added some more goal, but settled for a sufficient marker to make way in the northeast of Manchester on the conclusion of the English title.

Saturday, May 10, 2014

Assad's candidacy is bad for everyone, including himself

Bygone days when Syrian President Bashar Al-Assad announced his candidacy for a third presidential term, I remembered a passage from the play Waiting for Godot, Samuel Beckett. This classic theater of the absurd, whose plot is intentionally any relevant fact, is highly repetitive and symbolizes the tedium and meaninglessness of human life. In one passage, Tarragon, one of the two tramps waiting in vain for Godot says: "Can not be worse ' The review is completed by Vladimir response, another tramp, who responds: "That's what you think." The impression that there is a touch of the absurd in the Syrian situation was reinforced a few days ago when the official media in Tehran reported that the Islamic Republic plans to send "providers" to ensure "freedom and regularity of the election of Syria "next June. De Min, Kafkaesque sounds that Iranian mullahs are the guarantors of free elections in Syria. It is like putting the cat in the care of the canary. Syria's civil war is a tragic play that already has become everything that could become before the curtain rises. The Syrian conflict began more than three years ago because a segment of the population was simply tired of decades of arrogant and despotic power of the Assad clan and their corrupt partners. With the passage of a few months, the initial complaints of the protesters from the city of Deraa found a surprisingly deep resonance in most cities and towns in the country. To be fair, Bashar was certainly not responsible for all that had gone wrong in Syria since the country came under the rule of successive administrations Baath Party headed by his father, the late Al-Assad Haffez.Indeed, it is even may Bashar, an indecisive weakling, may well have been a mere puppet of a gang that operates in the shadows of the party. Within a few weeks of the uprising in Deraa, however called off Bashar became the unifying theme of a popular uprising that brought together a wide variety of many different groups with different political ideologies and aspirations. In 2013, demand that Bashar must go became the only point at which almost everyone, including many within the Assad regime, seemed to agree. At one point, a diplomatic initiative involving senior officials in Damascus and the administration of President Barack Obama in Washington abroqueló around the idea that Bashar had to step aside to allow the formation of a coalition government and transition. The euphemism "step aside" was chosen instead of "resign" to reassure the Russians who opposed regime change in Syria. The phrase "Bashar must go" became the focus of all diplomatic efforts, starting with the desperate mission to Kofi Annan and Lakhdar Brahimi, but ultimately none of that happened. The first Geneva agreement approved by Washington and Moscow was based on the output of Bashar. That would have paved the way to a more or less peaceful transition. It would have allowed the Syrian government structures remained largely intact, avoiding systemic collapse. The Baath Party and its allies had been able to maintain a share of power in a new national agreement, with the support of the majority of Syrians, and guaranteed by the great powers through the United Nations. At the same time, recognizing the commitment as an effective means of conflict resolution, it would have pulled the rug on both sides whose vision of politics was based on repression and violence. Perhaps more importantly, the commitment would have saved the ordeal Syrian caused by broken families, clans and communities, while the domestication of sectarian hatred that was hiding under the carpet for centuries could have been controlled. Yet nothing that happened.Perhaps encouraged by hard line segments from Tehran, Damascus clique decided not only reject power sharing in a future coalition government, but also to humiliate the opposition Bashar keeping in office. As I write these lines, the Iranian official media provide that Bashar will be reelected with "even bigger majority" that won last time when he won by 97% of the vote. This could mean a victory by 100% in June, and repeating the feat remembered Saddam Hussein in his time as head of Iraq. The Syrian uprising started because in 2011 when the status quo is unsustainable around. Three years of conflict have created a new situation even more unstable. In both cases, the status quo was, rightly or wrongly, symbolized by Assad. Therefore, if your departure was necessary to change in 2011, is an even greater need today. The decision to run for a new presidential term Bashar, buries the option of a change within the regime. The issue now is the change of regime. This can happen in two ways. Either because the Assad clique is successful in crushing the opposition, which in my view can not fully achieve for many years; or opposition grouped and re-armed begins a new round on his way to the conquest of Damascus, which, despite the odds, I do not think we currently possible. The third option would be the transformation of Syria into a mosaic of ungoverned territories, part of which would be controlled by the Assad clique. Assad's candidacy is bad news not only for Syria but for the Baas own, also to Iran and Russia will have to continue to fund an extended outlook victory without conflict . Thus, Tehran and Moscow will be paying for a lover who becomes more demanding and more expensive every day. Finally, Bashar's candidacy may even be detrimental to the Assad himself. An agreement to take a "step back" would be a good deal for him and his last option would set even maneuver to safeguard their safety and that of your family.

Friday, May 9, 2014

The full letter from Monica Lewinsky


Monica Lewinsky, the then White House intern who Bill Clinton in 1998 - chose to cheat on his wife, decided to tell his story. Why talk now? Because it's time to do it. Last year I turned 40 and it's time to stop walking on his toes about my past and future of others. I am determined to give it a different ending to my story.'ve finally decided to poke his head from behind the railing." Lewinsky sought anonymity during the last ten years. He recently sent a letter entitled "Shame and survival," the magazine Vanity Fair , which published it Thursday.


Then complete the chart:

"How does it feel to be the main oral sex queen of the United States?"
It was early 2001. I was sitting on stage at Cooper Union University in the middle of filming a Q & A for a documentary on HBO . I was the theme. And I was shocked.
Hundreds of people in the audience, mostly students, were looking at me, shocked many, wondering if I would answer the question.
The main reason that had agreed to participate in the program was not for rehashing or alter history "Interngate" but to attempt to move attention to significant issues. Many disturbing political and legal questions had come to light by the investigation and prosecution of President Bill Clinton. But the most shocking were generally ignored. People seemed indifferent to the deeper issues, such as erosion of privacy in the public sphere, the balance of power and gender inequality in politics and the media, and the erosion of legal protections that ensure that neither parent no children would have to testify against the other.
How innocent it was.
There were gasps and mutterings from the audience. Many faceless blurry people shouted"Do not answer".
"It's hurtful and insulting," he said, trying to regain my sharpness. "And insulting it is for me, it's more insulting to my family. Really do not know why this story is not turned on oral sex. Do not know. It was a mutual relationship ... who has done it may be a result of a society dominated by men. "
The audience laughed. Maybe they were surprised to hear these words coming from me.
I looked directly at the smiling guy who asked the question. "Maybe you're in a better position to answer that." After a pause, I added, "That probably cost me another year of therapy."
They would argue that accepting to participate in a documentary by HBO called Monica in black and white I had signed up to be embarrassed and publicly humiliated again. They might even think that I had become accustomed to humiliation. This meeting in Cooper Union, after all, paled in comparison to the 445-page Starr Report, which was the culmination of a four-year investigation of independent counsel Kenneth Starr on Clinton in the White House. It included a chapter and verse about my private sexual activities, along with transcripts of audio recordings that recorded many of my private conversations. But the question of "queen of oral sex", which was included in the program when it was broadcast on HBO in 2002 - stayed with me for a long time.
True, it was not the first time he had been stigmatized by my affair with Bill Clinton .But never before been confronted so directly, one to one, with such a coarse characterization.One of the unintended consequences of accepting myself to look at and try to tell the truth was that shame would again put around my neck like a scarlet A. Believe me, once you have it, it is very difficult to get it out.
If that awkward moment in Cooper Union had been passed a few years later, with the advent of social media, the humiliation would have been even more devastating. That clip would have gone viral on Twitter, YouTube, Facebook, TMZ , Gawker. would have been a meme on Tumblr. The same virality have deserved mention in the Daily Beast and the Huffington Post.As it was, it was enough viral and, thanks to the comprehensive nature of the Web, you could, 12 years later, watch it all day on YouTube if you want (and I hope you have better things to do with your time).
I know I'm not alone when it comes to public humiliation. Nobody, it seems, can escape the unforgiving gaze internet, where gossip, half-truths and lies are rooted and bitter. We have created, to borrow a term from historian Niculaus Mills, a "culture of humiliation," which not only encourages and delights in the pleasure of the humiliation of others, but also rewards those who belittle others from Paparazzi to gossip bloggers, night comedians and "entrepreneurs" of the web who profit from illegal videos.
Was arguably the most humiliated person in the world
Yes, we are all connected now. We can tweet a revolution in the streets or register large or small gains. But we're caught in a circle retroalimentable defamation and shame, one in which we become victims and perpetrators. Maybe we do not become a society if sometimes cruel, really, it feels as if we had done, but the Internet has seismically shifted the tone of our interactions. The ease, speed and distance to give us our electronic devices can also make us colder, more eloquent and less concerned about the consequences of our jokes and prejudices. Having lived humiliation in the most intimate way possible, that impresses me so happy to have all accepted this new way of being.
In my own case, each easily click YouTube link that reinforces the archetype, despite my efforts to divert it: I, the Queen of Oral Sex U.S.. That through. That bitch. Or, in the words of our president inescapable number 42, "that woman."
It may surprise you to learn that I really am that person.
In 1998, when news came of my affair with Bill Clinton, was arguably the most humiliated person in the world. Thanks to the Drudge Report, also possibly I was the first person whose total humiliation was driven by internet.
For several years I chanced on the business of fashion accessories and I got involved in various media projects, including HBO documentary. Then, for the most part kept a low profile.(The last major interview I gave was ten years ago). After all, does not have a low profile I was exposed to criticism for trying to "take advantage" of my "reputation". Apparently, others talk about me it's okay; speaking for myself what is not. I rejected offers that would have earned me over $ s10 million because they felt like the right thing to do. Over time, the media circus quieted, but never followed through, even when I tried to do.
Meanwhile, I saw how the lives of my friends moved on. Marriage. Children. Titles. (Second marriages. More children. More titles). Decided to change the page and do a postgraduate.
I moved to England to study, to challenge myself, to escape the scrutiny and to reimagine my identity. My professors and colleagues at the University of Economics in London were wonderful, friendly and respectful. He had more anonymity in London, perhaps for the fact that I spent most of my hours in class or in the library. In 2006, I graduated from a MA in Social Psychology. My master's thesis examined the social bias in the court and was titled "In Search of impartial jury: an exploration of the pretrial publicity and the Third Person Effect". I liked to joke that was changing the blue dress blue stockings, and the title gave me a new scaffolding on which to hang my life experiences. Also prove to be hoped, an escape to a normal life.

I moved to London, Los Angeles, New York and Portland, Oregon, and had interviews for a variety of jobs that were covered in "creative communication" and "brands", with an emphasis on charity campaigns. However, so my potential employers tactfully called my "story", I was never "just" for the position. In some cases, it was perfect for the wrong reasons, as in "Of course, your job require you to go to our events." And, of course , these events would be to attend the press.
In a promising job interview that took place in the run up to the 2008 election season, the conversation took an interesting turn. "The thing is, Monica," said the interviewer. "Clearly you're a young bright and affable, but for us and probably for any organization that depends on grants and financing government-is risky. First need a letter of compensation for Clinton. After all, there is a 25% chance that Mrs. Clinton is the next president. " I gave him a fake smile and said, "I understand."
In another job interview, this typical: I went to the rigid and cold reception area but a modern prestigious advertising agency in Los Angeles, my hometown. As always, put on my best smile "I am friendly, not a diva." "Hello. Monica Lewinsky to see So and So."
The receptionist twentysomething adjusted his black glasses hipster edge. "Monicawhat? ".
Before I could answer, another twentysomething, in tight jeans, plaid shirt and bow, and moved quickly interrupted: " Miss Lewinsky . " As a bartender, he continued: " A pleasure to have you here . know I'll make it to So and So who came? Soy Latte Green Tea Water? filter.?? ".
I found myself sitting at a small round table, face to face with Tal and Tal, head of strategy and planning agency. Speak. She was still grinning. This was not going well. I tried not to get nervous. Now not only made ​​faces but also cleared his throat. Was that sweat on your forehead? Then I realized: she was nervous, tics and all.
I had become skilled in handling a number of reactions in social situations and job interviews. I get it: it must be disconcerting to sit in front of "that woman." Needless to say, I did not get the position.
Eventually I realized that the traditional employment might not be an option for me. I managed to fix (just sometimes) with my own projects, usually with projects in which I participated or loans from family and friends.
In another job interview I was asked "If you were a brand Will, marking be?". Let me tell you, when you're Monica Lewinsky, that is a very loaded question.
In September 2010, the culmination of these experiences began to give me a broader context.A phone conversation with my mother changed the lens through which the world watched. We were discussing the tragic death of Tyler Clemente. Tyler, remember, was a freshman at Rutgers 18 years secretly filmed by the webcam are kissing another man. Days later, after being ridiculed and humiliated in social media, he committed suicide by jumping off the George Washington Bridge.
I rejected offers that would have earned me over $ s10 million
My mom cried. Sobbing, repeated again and again: "How are your parents must feel ... his poor parents."
It was an incredibly tragic event, but also made ​​me listen to mourn, I could not understand why my mom was so destroyed. then I realized: I was reliving 1998 when he kept me homebound . I was reliving those weeks when she was in my bed. Night after night, because I was suicidal. Shame, contempt and fear that had thrown her daughter had put too afraid to take my own life; a fear that humiliated me to kill me. (I never tried to kill myself, but I had strong suicidal temptations several times during investigations and for one or two periods after).
Never be so presumptuous as to put my story on the same level as that of Tyler Clementi. After all, my public humiliation was the result of my entanglement with a public figure recognized worldwide; that is, a result of poor own choices. But then, when I felt the deep pain of my mother, I wished I could have a chance to talk with Tyler about my love life, my sex life, my most private moments, my best kept secrets were transmitted around the world . I wished I could tell he knew a little about how you may have felt when exposed to the world. And that, it was difficult to imagine, it was possible to survive.
With the tragedy of Tyler, my own suffering took a different meaning. Maybe sharing my story, I reasoned, I can help others in their darkest moments of humiliation. The question became: how to find and give it a purpose to my past? It was my moment of Prufock: "I dare to disturb the universe ? ". Or, in my case, the Clinton universe.
Despite a decade of self-imposed silence, I was periodically revived as part of the national conversation, mostly in connection with Clinton. For example, in January and February this year, Rand Paul, Kentucky Senator and possible candidate for chairman of the Republican Party in 2016, managed to crawl to the pre-election manure. He fought against the accusation of Democrats that the GOP is carrying out a "war against women" arguing that Bill Clinton had committed "violence" work and function as a "predator" against "a 20 year old girl that was there for college ".

Sure, my boss took advantage of me, but I'll always keep firmly in this position: it was a consensual relationship . Any "abuse" came later, when I was turned into a scapegoat to protect their powerful position.
So try not disappear kept me out of the fight. I am, for better or worse, I presumed to be known.Every day I am recognized. All day. Sometimes a person goes next to me again and again as if not noticing. (Fortunately, 99.9% of the time, when strangers tell me something, support me and respect). Everyday someone mentioned me in a tweet or blog, and not always kindly.Every day, it seems, my name appears in an opinion piece or news clip or two, mentioned in passing in articles on topics as diverse as the millennials, Scandal, and the love life of French President François Hollande. Miley Cyrus refers to me when you twerking on stage, Eminem raps about me and Beyoncé's latest hit me reference. Thanks, Beyoncé, but if we use names as verbs, I think you mean "He did a Bill Clinton on my dress," not a "Monica Lewinsky".
Yet man I have a date ( yes , I have quotes!), I suffer some degree of memory of 1998.I have to be cautious about what it means to be "public" with someone. In the first years after the process, once left a front row seat next to the third-base line on a Yankees game when I found out that my date-a guy whose company I enjoyed very-he was in a relationship. It was just a marriage to get a green card, but I got scared that we could be photographed together and knock on the rags of gossip. I became adept at noticing when men are interested in me for the wrong reason. Fortunately, these were few and far apart in time. But every man who was special to me in the past 16 years, helped me find another part of me, the me that was destroyed in 1998. And, beyond the heartache, tears and disappointment, always'm going to be thankful.
In February this year, around the time that Senator Paul put me in the spotlight unwittingly I became the "loony narcissist", the latest twist in the Self as Archetype.
An image of a scenario that I got used too, even when he tried to continue with my life: a shrill ring interrupted the rhythm of my day. The call-Goalie building that I'm in New York makes me say an exasperated " What, again? " . Reappeared: the paparazzi, like swallows, they returned to the sidewalk outside, walk and run and walk some more.
I go to the computer. It's time for a little autogoogleo. (Oh, dear reader, please do not judge me). My heart sinks. There is an explosion in Google News. I know what that means. Any day you had planned went overboard. Leave the house and risk being photographed-only ensures that history will live.
The cameras have returned to the headlines. Conservative website was reviewing at the University of Arkansas file one of the closest friends and admirers of Hillary Clinton, Diane Blair, and found a series of memos 90 In some of them, Blair, who died in 2000, quotes the former first lady about her husband's relationship with me. Although Hillary as Blair notes, said he considered the "period" of his inexcusable husband vindicated him for trying to "handle someone who was clearly a 'narcissistic crazy.'"
My first thought, as I stood up, if that was the worst that said, I consider myself lucky. Mrs. Clinton, leo, had allegedly confided to Blair, in part, blamed herself for the adventure of her husband (being negligent emotionally) and seemed to have forgiven. Although Bill felt that he had acted with a "rude and inappropriate" behavior, the adventure was, however, "consensual (it was not a power relationship)."
I will always keep me steadfast in this position: it was a consensual relationship
The usual answer calls from friends who provide moral support when media stories make these volcanic eruption. Undo the tension with well-meaning jokes: "So let's change your monogram to NC?". I try to ignore the long-buried comments first lady. Given my experiences with Linda Tripp, I know better than anyone what it's like a conversation with a friend from being exposed and scrutinized, taken out of context. But just begins to eat away at me. I realize that Hillary Clinton was, unlike me when Tripp checking my deepest secrets and insecurities and recording them, fully aware of this documentation: it is that, according to memos, Blair asked to keep a log or journal their discussions for archival purposes.
Yes, I understand. Hillary Clinton wanted it recorded who was lashing out at her husband's mistress. There may be blamed her husband for being inappropriate, but I find his drive to blame the woman-not only to me but also to her disturbing. And well known: each marital indiscretion that reaches the public sphere, many of which involve policy-male, always seems that women are blamed conveniently. Sure, Eliot Spitzers Anthony Weiners and do what they can to look humiliated on cable news. Dejan public life for a while, but inevitably return, leaving everything behind Women in these tangles return to lives that are not so easily repaired.
But there is another layer that angers me: Narcissistic? Crazy??
You may remember that just five days before the world had heard my name, the FBI after my friend Linda Tripp approached the office of special prosecutor Kenneth Starr with information about my affair with the president ambushed me in a terrifying operation in the Pentagon City Mall At 24 years old, stuck in a hotel room on January 16, 1998, with mostly male interrogators Starr getting orders, tried to dissuade me from calling my lawyer and was threatened with 27 years of prison for filing a sworn statement in which he denied the affair with Clinton, among other alleged crimes I was offered immunity if they accept and place calls monitored using a microphone in talks with two of the confidants of the president and possibly the president himself. I refused. Trusting Linda Tripp became an unintentional betrayal. But this? The mother of all betrayals. That would not. Brave or stupid, maybe, but narcissistic and crazy?
These descriptions of 16 years old revived memories of pain, particularly in the area of ​​women throwing derision among them. So you may wonder: where are the feminists were then? Is the question that disturbs me to this day.
He wanted some sign of understanding of a feminist group. Was good classic women's support was needed. None came. Given the issues at stake, gender politics, sex-work, one would expect them to talk. They did not. I understand your dilemma: Bill Clinton was a "friendly" president with the causes of women.
It did not help that my case was not one of conventional "sexual harassment", thecharge against Bill Clinton was made ​​by Paula Jones, who assembled a huge lawsuit against him. My name came up only because thanks to new advances in feminist research in such cases could launch a larger network. The Jones case a club with which to hit the right feminists who supported Clinton became: Why not enthusiastically supported an investigation into a sexual harassment case? What if the president had been a Republican? Accusations of hypocrisy flew.
A few representatives of the modern feminist movement involved slightly. Yet, instead of meaningful engagement, we had this:. Jan. 30, 1998 Day 9 of the scandal. Cocktails at Le Bernardin in Manhattan. In attendance: Erica Jong writers, Nancy Friday, Katie Roiphe and Elizabeth Benedict; the writer of Saturday Night Live Patricia Marx; Marisa Bow, editor of Word , an online magazine; Fashion designer Nicole Mille; Susan Shellogg old dominatrix; and his host, co-owner of Le Bernardin Maguy Le Coze. The New York Observer joined this group to exchange perceptions "Interngate" to be recorded by Francine Prose. (Sadly, the girl who really make this whole group missed: Maureen Down, or "Moremean Dowdy" as I used to call it today, I would gather with her ​​for a drink.).
Oh, what it must have been to be in that cocktail party:
Marisa Bowe : whole life revolves around being in control and being smart. And his wife is also very smart and is always in control. And the thought of having sex with a stupid not very bright woman in the Oval Office is something appealing.
I imagined : I'm not saying it's brilliant, but how do you know that what I am? My first job after college was in the White House.
Shellogg Susan : And you think it's terribly selfish? Selfish and demanding, does having oral sex and do not reciprocate? I mean ... she said, "Well, he met me."
I : And where exactly did not say this? What public statement did not? What testimony was not posted?

Katie Roiphe : I think people are shocked by the way (Monica Lewinsky) is seen, which is interesting. Because we like to believe our presidents are like gods, and if JFK has an affair with Marilyn Monroe, all in the realm of the demigods ... So, what I keep hearing over and over is that Monica Lewinsky is not as Cute.

I : Well, thank you. The first image that came up was the passport. What you would you like your passport photo to be published around the world as the picture that defines you? What you are also saying here is that the main quality that would qualify for a woman to have an intimate relationship with a powerful man's physical attractiveness. If that's not a step back, do not know what it is.
Erica Jong : My dental hygienist showed me that has a third-grade disease in the gums.
Shellogg : What do you think will happen to him (her)? That is, is it going to disappear quietly or write a book? Or people will forget it in six months?
Nancy Friday : You can rent your mouth.
I : (no words).
Jong : But, you know, men like approach mouths were close to power. Think fantasy in the mind of man while she's down and he's thinking "Oh my God."
Elizabeth Benedict : Do to me what you did with the President. Do that.
: (Even without words).
Jong : I think we are not insulting Monica Lewinsky is a tribute to how far we've come.
The hurtful topic appeared as headline "Supergirls NEW YORK LOVE TO THAT WICKED PRESIDENT". (In a note he wrote for Vanity Fair , Marjorie Williams called it "the most embarrassing thing I read in a long time"). For me, illustrates an aspect of culture perplejizante humiliation, one that Phyllis Chesler acknowledged in her book Woman's Inhumanity to Woman: that women themselves are not immune to certain types of misogyny. Today we see how "bad girls" school lurking in the area of recreation that is current internet (or at the round table of experts appearing on television or in a French restaurant), always ready to go insulting.

I still have a deep respect for feminism and I appreciate the great strides made the motion to advance a matter as the rights of women in past decades. But, based on my experience of having been passed from hand to hand like a canape gender politics, I do not identify as a feminist with a capital F. The leaders of the movement failed to articulate a position that essentially was not against women in 1998. In the case of "Supergirls New York," I should not have been so difficult for them to pounce on the president not to attack or ashamed. Instead, they were part of an act of humiliation.
I, myself, I deeply regret what happened between President Clinton and me. Let me repeat: I.Myself. Sorry. Deeply. Lo. Que. It happened. At that time, at least from my point of view, it was a real connection with emotional intimacy, frequent visits, plans, phone calls and exchanging gifts . Still in my early twenties, I was too young to understand the real consequences and too young to realize it was going to be sacrificed for political expediency.Now I look back and shake my head and wonder: that was where we were-you-thinking? 'd Give anything to go back in time, rewind the tape.
Like many Americans, I've been thinking about Hillary Clinton. What, I wonder, if I decided to run in 2016? What if you win? What if you win a second time?
But when I think about these issues, to me there is a dimension that goes beyond game to finally have a woman in the White House. We all remember the battle cry of second-wave feminism, "the personal is political". Many people (myself included) said that my relationship with Bill Clinton was a personal issue, not one suitable for use in a high-risk political war. When I hear talk about the potential candidacy of Hillary, I can not help thinking of a new wave of paparazzi, a new wave of style items "Whatever happened to ...?", The next time you mention me on Fox News while covering the primaries. I have begun to find it debilitating to have to assemble the cycle of my life in some way about a political agenda. For me, it is a scenario in which the personal and the political are impossible to separate.
In 2008, when Hillary was a candidate for president, remained virtually confined
In 2008, when Hillary was a candidate for president, remained virtually imprisoned despite flooded me with requests for interviews me. I procrastinated some related media projects in 2012 until after the election ads. (They were eventually canceled, and no, despite what some media say, I was not offered a contract for 12 million dollars to write a book telling all intimacies-topic). And recently, once again, I found myself wrapped in shyness, afraid to "become a topic of debate" back in case he decided to run again. But should I put my life on hold for 8 or 10 years?
Being a Democrat-awareness and be aware that I could use both the right and left-, I kept quiet for 10 years. In fact, I was so quiet that in some circles it is said that the Clintons should have paid me not to talk. If not, why should I not speak? I can assure you that there is nothing further from the truth.
Why talk now? Because it's time to do it.
Last year I turned 40 and it's time to stop walking on his toes about my past and future of others. I am determined to give it a different ending to my story. Finally I decided to poke his head from behind the railing so I can retrieve the narrative of my life and make sense of my past. (How much will it cost me is something I will find out soon). Despite what some false headlines will comment on this note, this is not a "Me against the Clintons." Their lives went ahead; occupy important and powerful on the global stage locations. They do not want anything bad. And I totally understand that what happened to me and my future has nothing to do with them.
It also has to do with the personal and the political. I have lived many of the questions that eventually became a central part of our national discussion since 1998.? far do we allow the government that we get into our rooms? How do we combine our right to privacy with the need to know the indiscretions sex? How can we protect ourselves from a government that increasingly asks us greater access to our private data and information? And most importantly a personal level, how do we deal with the way in which shame the other in the age of the Internet? (My current goal is to get involved in efforts to help victims who have been humiliated or embarrassed on the internet and talk about these issues in public).
So far, "that woman" has never managed to escape the shadow of that the way they appeared in public for the first time. I was the Plaguing Unstable (a phrase spread by the Clinton Administration) Easy Silly Girl and the Innocent Poor who could not understand what he was doing. The Clinton Administration, the minions of the special prosecutor, political operatives on both sides of the political scene and the media managed to label me all that. And all that left a mark that was full of power. I became a social representation, social canvas on which anyone could project their confusion about women, sex, infidelity, politics and the body.
Unlike the others involved, I was so young that it had not established an identity to which to return. No "I let this define me"-in 1998, just had not had the life experience necessary to establish my own identity. If you managed not yet understand who you are, it is difficult not to accept the horrible image that others believe in you. (Hence the compassion we feel for those young people today are embarrassed on the internet). Despite a lot of personal therapy and search and explore other paths, I remained "stuck" for too long.
Not any more. It's time to burn and bury beret blue dress . And go forward.